it doesn't matter what i need was played on 2005-03-11 at 2:30 p.m.:

landa has deceided that she is going to throw me a party bc i made it to the conservatory. no one is going to come bc a)tonight is the auction and b) tomorrow is the opera. so ..very small party for me. sigh. i don't even think i want a party..what is there to party about anyway?...

today in class ia sked aaron to sit by me so i could look at his paper. all was going fine and dandy, when aubry ask him waht he thought of her. now for refernce as most of u havne't seen aubry before, she is a tall, blonde statuesque beauty. tan and pretty..and everything i'm not. so he said soething like..well this is the guy sode of me but..ur ..stunning, open minded and very determinded. at that moment i realized that i'm never giong to be pretty..or good enough to grab his attention. sigh. guess i should jsut give up my dreams and settle for being a friend. what ever it doesn't matter anyway.

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