theres no need to tell anyone..they'd only hold us down was played on 2005-04-22 at 12:41 a.m.:

so..today wasa shitty and great..depending on what time u ask me. this morning i wake up to my mom yelling at me..about aaron... just stupid things about how he will ruin me..blah blah..really hurt...cried on the way to school. then i can't find anything to wear for the jazz concert.. i swear ppl hide my things..i was really upset bc i couldn't find ANYTHING. then landa is being pissy at me..for good reason.. mainly about aaron and she doens't like him..i think its bc ..well..its complicated. i can take as much stress as u can give me..but i got my breaking point and it was today.

jazz cab..i was really nervous bc don, jillian, bobby, kristen, aaron, mom, tia jessica nad her husband were there. i was really scared. but things went ok and i thought i did good..and my mom thoughti did good..and don said i was the best one which made me proud..i kinda forgot they were there..lol.and aaron said i did good...which made me happy..and lan was convinced that i was the best one..better than, shay i dare say...

after we went to sonic and hung out..me lan aaron and rue..whose really nake is jon.. and talked and stuff till i had to go home. things didn't reall go so well..i'm sorry...

its hard for me too lan..but u will always be my best friend..i just can't be everything u want me to be..and i know u know this...i'm jsut reassuring you...bc i heart u. a .lot.

yea i pwned tonight..the minute i got up on stage..all the nervousness went away..and i felt really happy...for a while...

hopefully things will get better...

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